Friday, November 13, 2009

something a little different

Last night, we all re-connected through coincidental manners. You first neared me as my senses were distracted by familiarity. I didn't know if you wanted to talk to me because lets face it, i doubt you ever did. I still remember you though, I promise you that. Then, we all came together by visions of our new homes and how close we all actually were. I can clearly say that I miss you all. We began laughing and having conversations again. Meanwhile, plans were made that weren't addressed to all. I wish it would be like how I thought it all used to be. I did have another dream where I was at school and you came and embraced me. I was surprised to say the least, and I still feel a little bit awkward to such a gesture, even in my dreams. I don' really remember my dreams anymore. Its been only demonic images mostly now that i think about it, but i remember last night clearly.


Sunday, October 4, 2009

listening to anathello

i can hear the coyotes howling, looking for their space in the world.

Friday, September 4, 2009

so much for friends...


I wonder off followed by only my memories
ill never see you again I promise
only because you chose this

trails of only wethered negatives can be projected
as clear as the silence in your ears.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

souljaboysux

I loose sanity every once in a while.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

brushybrushbrush

oblivion has been the only dominant color
borders fading into a portrait of insanity
I don't understand any of you
the images behind these blends only show
dull bridges and gaps of matter

with no one to be seen
you have found eternity.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

structured cracks are nothing to be proud of
with all these faults, no wonder you are out of line
I'm bringing myself down, but i don't know how
it all seemed so clear yesterday

awaiting the final call
this might mean goodbye.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

goodbye

with nothing to be heard
I found myself here alone
woken up by chance

I don't think any of you understand
I don't want you to

separating ink and paper
as it all runs down
truthful statesments
and nothing to be heard

Sunday, May 17, 2009

dont

with all that has been said and heard
does this make it any different?
I finally see this happening

misunderstood phrases and no return
how will I ever find you?
to do it once more I don't think you can last
please listen to me just this one time

lost sounds and definite endings
how can we retrace our words?
disinegrate into my mind while you are ringing
let it loose once more

I hope I can find you, please help me get there.

Friday, April 10, 2009

afraid of the unheard
please rise and let it all be known
there can't be anything good coming from this

I desire nothing but this
everlasting smiles are at plain reach
help me get to you
I love you

Monday, March 9, 2009

overturn

I see you
but whats going on?
its grows until you cant even see
and then
stops
Its been much longer than this

unreconizable patterns set this life in motion
I'm the deafening cry
but you cant see me

tranquil abrasions fly past your vision
and the air
is quickly thinned

I don't know about you, but I do miss you.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

214

this misconception that you live in
so easily identified by the angels
I'm scared, that it's all not there anymore

right now
I've never felt so false
the dark seconds of my blinking eyes
its the only thing in time that feels right

don't let me loose my vision
my stars are free falling
this all I have left to hold on to
the security of my mirror

where are you?
don't let it fade away
I'm relaly not too sure, whats happening?
I do know what its like...
at least I thought I did.

Monday, February 9, 2009

silence

ive dreamt of my short lasting life
it dosen't matter, i don't have that much time
And I reaaly don't care,
just cut me short.




there mroe happyness out there to share with
why don't you go along and find it
theres none here
only makes matters worse trust me.
I bet he has happyness to give you.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

.

I feel so cold.

labyrinth

leaking thoughts and sense of pain
anxious shaking with no end to be seen
coated feelings and uncovered choices
I can see no end to this

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

panic

strip off the last vein
its pointless if you can't calm down
you trembling coward
lusting anger
center. aim
and focus
I Hate you.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

distorted

unkept balance
i keep loosing my step
total temptation
just keep it away

evergrowing hunger
evergrowing hate
why can't this end quicker than its turn on me?

lost translations
and covnersations
shoot it off
lets finish it off dead.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

coyote

these fixated eyes
where are you?
i can feel you coming from all directions
artificial moments naturally beign developed

this covering veil
Why is it so bleak?

who is actually to survive?
don't tell me thats okay
that I'm okay.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

expansion

Timeless thoughts
dynamic breathing
there can't be anymore hesitation
defectiveness
only found steps ahead

sentiments clenched

let this material be screened
You wouldn't want to see
trust me

I cant hear you
please whisper again
I beg you